Be My Future Ex
I want you.
I need you.
Need may seem like a strong word but, I do need you.
At least for now.
Why do I feel this burning desire to have you?
I can’t introduce you to my parents.
They’ll judge me… and us.
I can’t introduce you to my mentors.
They’ll shun me… and us.
But I do want my friends to see you.
I don’t plan to outright introduce you.
But, I will go out of my way to make sure they see us together.
I don’t want them to have any doubts either.
I will hold your hands around them.
I will whisper jokes into your ear and make you giggle.
I will put on this persona of a macho cool guy.
A guy who just goes with the flow.
A guy who has everything under control.
I will be somewhat of a bad boy.
I will make them jealous.
Sure, you will pick up certain hints after a while.
Hints that make you question us… and me.
Hints that will lead you to the truth.
The truth that this isn’t forever.
That it’s all an act.
That I’m using you.
But, for some reason, you stick around.
Maybe it’s because of the fun we’re having.
Maybe you’re playing a game too.
Or maybe you stick around with the hope that one day I will change.
Change into the person you need.
That one day I will realize that you are the one who makes me happy.
That you are the one I should stay with.
That it doesn’t matter what my parents or anyone else think.
That you are my best future.
But until that day comes…
I just want you to be…
My future ex.